Feeling down and out...

kiraseed · January 5th, 2004, 10:24

Well It's been awhile since I posted and I thought I'd share my feelings with the board and maybe feel a tad better.

Lately I'v been massively depressed and lonely. I graduated last summer with my GED because I was homeschooled through the state. After completing the test's I'v been looking into Art and Animation college's to persue what I love to do most.

But often I think back and wonder if I did the right thing or if I could have done thing's differently, or that maybe I'm not smart enough or good enough for anything...

Sometimes I feel so sad that I think of what death is like and that alone scare's me. I wish I didnt feel this way and had a better look on things but I just cant.

I think if I got into an Art college I'd be more happy, but at the moment I feel alone...

I also dont know if I'll have the motivation to come around much anymore so I'd like to say this has been an awesome board with some great people.

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**Razor Blade** · January 5th, 2004, 10:28

We all have times where we feel alone. The best thing to do to get into college, other than good grades and money is draw. I mean theres nothing better than showing the talent and artistic skills to forward you there. Plus it can releive stress for some people.

I think about death and where we go. I hope thats what you mean. We all do. Your not alone man.

You can't change the past so don't dwell on it. Sure we all have regrets but the best way to get out of a rut is move on.

Hope that can help you.

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kougaiji · January 5th, 2004, 11:03

think of my condition:
i am 23
i live alone away from home
i feel cold all the time for the department i live in have only bed and table
i work 8hours a day, countless time extending
i work 6days a week, countless sunday overtime
i get 100 USD a month
i ve never had a lover to accompany
i ve few friends who agree to eat out with me

still i live

dont bother complain
dont be sad for you should be better
for this is the real you

so just do you best

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Blackguard · January 5th, 2004, 11:13

well put razor, Dwelling on the past only makes the future harder to see. Pain is life and in life is gain learn from what happen and try to make the best of it, get reason from it and I think you will see better. Being alone is apart of life and life is life.

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Kaiser Sigma · January 5th, 2004, 23:41

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Originally Posted by kiraseed

But often I think back and wonder if I did the right thing or if I could have done thing's differently, or that maybe I'm not smart enough or good enough for anything...

I think if I got into an Art college I'd be more happy, but at the moment I feel alone...

I also dont know if I'll have the motivation to come around much anymore so I'd like to say this has been an awesome board with some great people.

Well, one thing that I can tell you for sure is that dwelling on the past is never a good thing. What's done is done, don't torment yourself about whether you did or not the right thing or about if you are good enough... to have real confidence in yourself is hard, it's understandable that ppl sometimes fail into the despair of hesitation... even so, sometimes the best thing you can do is close your eyes and just trust that you will eventually find a way out... excessive thinking is never a good thing, trust me.

Do what you want, follow what you wish... if art's what you feel it's for you then give it a try, the worse that could happen is that you don't like it, the things you can gain, on the other hand, are too many...

It'd be a pitty to see you leave, then again no one but you knows what's better for your own self... best of luck tho.

RZetlin · January 5th, 2004, 23:53

It's time to look forward to the future and put the past behind.

The reason you are depressed is because you are uncertain about the future. You're scared that you won't do well at Art and Animation College.

I think it helps if you talk to people who has the same dreams that you do.

If you want to pursue art and animation I suggest visiting animationnation.com. There is a forum with animation art students and professional artists. They can give you advice. Tell them I sent you.

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metalgear · January 6th, 2004, 02:45

I won't say I experinced what you have, yet I feel that I some idea what you are talking about, I have felt the way you described for so long and if not for my current situation I would still feel that way. the only thing I can tell you that if this is one of the first times you have felt this, it will make it really hard to interact with other ppl on certian levels. thats all of the knowledge I can share, goodluck with that, if you are like me the lack of motivation doesn't goes away, at least for me.

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January 5th, 2004, 10:24	#1
kiraseed "That wasn't so bad." Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Amongst The Clouds Posts: 611	Feeling down and out... Well It's been awhile since I posted and I thought I'd share my feelings with the board and maybe feel a tad better. Lately I'v been massively depressed and lonely. I graduated last summer with my GED because I was homeschooled through the state. After completing the test's I'v been looking into Art and Animation college's to persue what I love to do most. But often I think back and wonder if I did the right thing or if I could have done thing's differently, or that maybe I'm not smart enough or good enough for anything... Sometimes I feel so sad that I think of what death is like and that alone scare's me. I wish I didnt feel this way and had a better look on things but I just cant. I think if I got into an Art college I'd be more happy, but at the moment I feel alone... I also dont know if I'll have the motivation to come around much anymore so I'd like to say this has been an awesome board with some great people. __________________ "It's an Air Pirate's duty to cause trouble...I feel so accomplished." +WinXP SP1+P4 2.8C GHz HT+1.5GB 2700 RAM+ +64MB ATI RADEON 9200LE 8X AGP+Sony DVD±RW 4x+ +Sony CD-ROM 40x+120GB 8MB 7200rpm HDD+ Blue Rogues

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January 5th, 2004, 10:28	#2
Razor Blade Locked and Loaded Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: I AM CANADIAN! Posts: 12,032	We all have times where we feel alone. The best thing to do to get into college, other than good grades and money is draw. I mean theres nothing better than showing the talent and artistic skills to forward you there. Plus it can releive stress for some people. I think about death and where we go. I hope thats what you mean. We all do. Your not alone man. You can't change the past so don't dwell on it. Sure we all have regrets but the best way to get out of a rut is move on. Hope that can help you. __________________ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Core 2 Duo T7300 2.0 GHz ● NVIDIA GeForce 8400GS ● 2GB DDR2 RAM Hitachi 120GB HD ● Dual Layer DVD+/-RW Drive ● Windows Vista Home Premium ● Dell 2007WFP LCD ● Dell XPS M1330 Laptop ● 1TB Western Digital MyBook External HD ● Logitech Z10 Speakers ● PLAYSTATION 3 --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

January 5th, 2004, 11:03	#3
kougaiji smile...like an angel Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: sichuan,mianyang,china Posts: 550	think of my condition: i am 23 i live alone away from home i feel cold all the time for the department i live in have only bed and table i work 8hours a day, countless time extending i work 6days a week, countless sunday overtime i get 100 USD a month i ve never had a lover to accompany i ve few friends who agree to eat out with me still i live dont bother complain dont be sad for you should be better for this is the real you so just do you best __________________ cumpter: AMD 2500+ 512mb TNT2 32mb console: PS2

January 5th, 2004, 11:13	#4
Blackguard you can't see like i can. Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 43	well put razor, Dwelling on the past only makes the future harder to see. Pain is life and in life is gain learn from what happen and try to make the best of it, get reason from it and I think you will see better. Being alone is apart of life and life is life. __________________

January 5th, 2004, 23:53	#6
RZetlin General of Tangerines Join Date: Jun 2001 Location: Defending the Sea Posts: 3,924	It's time to look forward to the future and put the past behind. The reason you are depressed is because you are uncertain about the future. You're scared that you won't do well at Art and Animation College. I think it helps if you talk to people who has the same dreams that you do. If you want to pursue art and animation I suggest visiting animationnation.com. There is a forum with animation art students and professional artists. They can give you advice. Tell them I sent you. __________________ AMD Athlon 64 3700+ \| 2 GB RAM \| XFX Nvidia 6800 GS 256 MB XXX Edition \| Win XP Pro SP3 "Asu no Egao no Tame ni!" - So We Can Smile Tomorrow! Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/RZetlin

January 6th, 2004, 02:45	#7
metalgear Honda Civic Join Date: Sep 2002 Location: moscow Posts: 948	I won't say I experinced what you have, yet I feel that I some idea what you are talking about, I have felt the way you described for so long and if not for my current situation I would still feel that way. the only thing I can tell you that if this is one of the first times you have felt this, it will make it really hard to interact with other ppl on certian levels. thats all of the knowledge I can share, goodluck with that, if you are like me the lack of motivation doesn't goes away, at least for me. __________________ Last edited by metalgear; January 6th, 2004 at 22:34..