The Beginning or The End?

[Ninjaa]

It's been a long time since I have even visited this place. For those who don't know me, I left about a year or so ago, and I had the second greatest number of posts on this forum when I left. On my way out, I spoke my mind, requested my post count cut to zero, and I swore to myself I would never return here. I wasn't banned or punished, but it wasn't very pleasant for anyone involved. I won't go into the details, but I am sure that if you are curious, you can find out for yourself easily enough.

What brings me back? Many things. First and foremost is that I have been drinking all day, and I am starting to feel the alcohol. Those of you who know me will probably remember me as the drunk guy in the corner wearing all black and swinging a sword around like it was a toy. That much hasn't changed. Other reasons why I am posting this now is that I was talking to a good friend of mine who is a resident of these forums. He very much wants me to come back, and says as much every time we talk. That seriously makes me feel like an ass, as there's a lot of people around here who I know want to see me come back, and I just don't have a good reason for not doing so. Plus, leaving in the way I did always struck me as wrong, as I always felt that the manner in which I left would cause the person I left because to break out with the champagne, simply because I was gone. I hate to lose. I also must admit that I read my last thread again a week ago. It has been a very long time since I read it, and even though I knew what was there, I had the same reaction that I had when I first read it. I will probably remember that day forever. It wasn't my finest moment. When I first read my "goodbye" thread, I was in a student computer lab at my University. When I read the nice things that people said about me, my resolve faded to nothing. I hated myself for leaving, and I actually started crying when I read all the nice things that people said about me.

But there are also many reasons why I should not come back. Firstly, I will not show any respect or anything of the sort to this person of which I speak. The problem here is that he is an admin. I disagree with his position because in my opinion, he does not behave in a manner befitting an admin. I was often nominated by the members here for an admin position myself, but I always made it clear that I would not accept such a position, even if offered, because I would not like to be restricted by the set of behaviors and responsibilities that an admin should carry. The person of which I speak has broken pretty much every law I did not want to be an admin myself because of. The other reasons I suppose I have broken simply by being here. I swore when I left that I would never return. I frequently break promises to myself, but that one was different. To break it would be breaking my code of honor, which I hold sacred. But what can I say? Alcohol makes me do dumb things. I told my friend last night that I would make my decision to come back when I was sober. I did make that decision, and I thought it was the dumbest idea ever to come back. After a few beers things change though. Which leads me here. Another very good reason for me not coming back is that I have nothing to talk about. I am a Nintendo person. I buy Nintendo consoles and nothing else. I do not support emulation of modern Nintendo consoles. I hate Microsoft. I do not like Sony. In case you hadn't noticed, there isn't even a Dolwin forum here, although every PS2 and XBox emulator have their own forum. That speaks volumes about how welcome I am here. Besides, most of the people who I did talk to a lot back in the day seem to be gone for the most part. There's nothing here for me anymore. My last reason for not coming back is simply that I give no guarantee that I will stay here. When I left, I am sure that most people thought I would be back within a month, but I stayed gone. Like I said, there's nothing here for me anymore. For all I know, I could stay here a week just to confirm my suspicions for myself, then leave for good.

At any rate, if you are reading this far, it means one of two things. You are curious about the battle that's sure to be brewing, or you have some stake vested in this.

So, I have a proposal to put forward. If you are an admin here, and your name is NOT Kane, or a variant of it, ban me right now if you don't want me around. I have given reasons to both keep me and ban me. It's your decision, and I give you full permission to ban me if you don't want me here. You don't need just reason. If your name is Kane or a variant of it, and you are an admin, and you want me gone, then I give you full permission to piss up a rope.

If you are a regular user, then put your vote down. I just want to know how welcome I am around here these days. I am not saying that I am back or not just yet. I have already breached a major rule that I put down a long time ago simply by posting here though.

PS: For those of you wondering, the posts on April 1st last year were done by someone else who I had given my password to. It was an April Fool's joke. This post now is the real deal.

[T.O.F.K.A.Z]

Ninja is (maybe) coming back , the horror begins (again) j/k.Well just be your normal self once again and try not to make you know who mad at you.

You are more then welcome to stay , if they can give me a second chance why shouldn't they do the same to you right ?

I liked you back then and I still do now you crazy drunk swordswinging fool j/k , so I voted you're welcome to stay here.

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[Mr. Killjoy]

w00t, the Legendary Ninja is back, I often heard about you

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[Kellicros]

What's over, is over. Like I said before, forget about all those crap. If you decided to stay, I'd say, welcome back.

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I dont see why you shouldnt stay here,

I do remember clearly the time you , fawad and others used to debate in the console thread before it got out of hand. Problems often occur between members for various reasons, I for one has pissed one member I know of because of a misunderstanding. I dont know whats exactly between you and Kane, but I believe the discission of banning you Is not taken by one admin, its discussed in the admin forum ( IIRC)

At any rate, what happenned has happenned, there is no significance of disccussing it again. Welcome back to the boards, its nice to see ou back here, and I hope that non of that which happenned previously occur again

PS: Try not to drink alcohol for a change

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-Elly

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[Zaryl]

I dont know you Ninja but for me, "what past is past. It's time to move on". Welcome back.

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Long time no see

[Kane]

Personaly I don't have a problem with you coming back, it's your choice. As you said, we never banned you, I never felt the inclination to ban you. As long as things don't get out of hand like last time, I'm fine.
I really don't know why you have a thing against me, but meh.

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Last edited by Lord Kane; September 10th, 2003 at 16:36..

[Kaiser Sigma]

And so the drama begins anew... I see that you still need popular support for your ego...

Still begrudging Kane ? Threads for getting back at others are a bad thing (specially when they were doing their job)... didn't you learn that with the "Do you hate me ?" thread ?
If it makes you feel better read the other drama thread that you created to see that Kane wasn't the only one involved...

BTW want to stay ? Go ahead, but grow up a bit and stop depending so much on your little popularity issue... you are just another regular member, people loved you and you acted like an idiot twice:
a) while leaving saying all that crap
b) when you had that paranoia attack of fanboyism on the other forum and instead of releasing your misguided anger towards me you released on the entire forum saying that it was a fortune that you left it (something like that, not your exact words)... BTW I didn't even knew who you were at that time

People in here loved you (don't ask me why, I still think you are deficient) and you slaped their hands away. People will now welcome you greatly, but for their blindness I'm in here to pinpoint all your faults... I won't let you bring turmoil to this place once again.

Anyways, I'm pretty sure that you will make another scandal out of my post but then again... you are back to my ignore list... just to avoid flamable situation between us...

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Last edited by Kaiser Sigma; September 10th, 2003 at 17:41..

[psicomaniaco]

Though I never had anything against Ninja, I could live w/o his polemic threads and the "Oh, I have a high post count" (like this is important!) and "Oh, my threads are better than anyone's here..."
Man, this forum is only for us to have fun and help others, its not a competition on how is the most popular here. Look Kaiser; though is too cold sometimes (ok, ALL the times), he don't care 'bout any of this. He don't care what ppl think of him and I've never seen an useless, polemic or stupid thread made by him. Its like he said to me once: "I don't want to be popular."
Ninja, most of your threads where great! But just don't let this go to your head. I think most of us will be happy to have you back (i know I will), but try to remember that u have NOTHING special. U're not better than anyone here!

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[Kid A]

Just stay for a while... if you like it here, stay; if not, leave. It's that simple. You are welcome either way.

[T.O.F.K.A.Z]

Originally Posted by Kaiser Sigma

People in here loved you (don't ask me why, I still think you are deficient) and you slaped their hands away. People will now welcome you greatly, but for their blindness I'm in here to pinpoint all your faults... I won't let you bring turmoil to this place once again.

Well frankly I think Ninja deserves the same grace as I got and let by gones be by gones like they did with me (Older members here might know why I say this) I did some way badder things IMO then Ninja so Kaiser don't be so harsh on him. He has made his mistakes but who hasn't ?

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[Kaiser Sigma]

No you didn't. As I said, his delusions about popularity annoys me, I once sent him a PM notifying him that he was in my ignore list and he created a thread asking about whether ppl hate himr or like him.
Someone called him a spammer and he created 2 different threads, once insulting that person and another one to say that he will never come back... (geez, what's he doing in here then ?)

Now, I once left the forums... did I make a thread ? No.
I once had issues with an admin... did I make a giga-fuss ? No.
He once turned all the forums into me for adding him to my ignore list... did I make a thread to boost my ego while asking about popularity ? No.

The list goes on but... I suppose that you get the idea pretty much... BTW for the last on his "behavior" please click on the links of my signature...

My point ? His popularity got to his head, that people like him doesn't mean that he's a necessary being, lastly I'm sick of seeing him resourcing to have ppl telling him how much they like him each time he feels kinda down.

[Boltzmann]

Like I've said before, some things are better left the way they are...

Anyway, the decision is still up to you. If you wanna come back and stick to the rules then who am I to have anything against it?

But this popularity issue bugs me too...

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[Carnage]

hey Ninja,long time no seen...well..for my part you can always come back .......as long as not another war or someting starts....

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[Strider]

so who convinced ya to come back for a bit? was it yelo?
well, good youre back for a bit atleast, eface wont be so dominant in the weirdness scale anymore, just dont make a repeat of that conversation u had in AA a while ago on the bridge map

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[Kaiser Sigma]

Originally Posted by Carnage

hey Ninja,long time no seen...well..for my part you can always come back .......as long as not another war or someting starts....

Those with a most objective judgement (me in this case) will be following his steps minutely... as I said, I'm not letting him cause/bring any more turmoil to the forums than the one he already caused.

[Exodus]

Originally Posted by Ninja

It was an April Fool's joke.

ah, nice to know i was right.

anyways, i had taken my little leave of absence from the forums during the whole angry ordeal, so i really don't know how much tension there really was, but if you feel like coming back, i don't see why not. you're not banned, so you're not necessarily not wanted.

(could i have written 'not' anymore times? talk about repetative)

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[GSDragoon]

So, I have a proposal to put forward. If you are an admin here, and your name is NOT Kane, or a variant of it, ban me right now if you don't want me around.

Well, the Dragoon in my name mainly refers to Kain Highwind from FF2US/4JAP.

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[Proto]

I still think we should have an sticky or something for the welcome (back) threads. As you can see, they can even get THIS annoying.

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