Hmm..this is worse then we thought...you have made him your pillar of strength...a crutch if you would.....As if you cannot function without him...
Loneliness is like a terminal disease that kills slow.....we know of this..it's not pretty...However there is always people to talk to...you've taken that step here...
Without inching too close to making this too personal....we have a simple question......Do you love him because he is the love of your life...or do you love him because he seems to be always there for you?...fills the void..the loneliness?...Perhaps you need a bigger hug then...
Hang in there....as you stated...each day you grow stronger..
We recall the days when we would garden ....we used to manually till the soil...at first we were not strong enough to drive the shovel into the ground...but we grew stronger each day we tilled...we recall blisters and open sores appearing on our hands...eventually our hands grew tough and callussed...after that gardening became easy....so is it with real life aye?
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